LOTF Ch. 10 The Shell and the Glasses. Viewpoint: Ralph

What have we done?

There is only Me, Piggy, and Samneric left. Simon would be here, if he wasn't dead. We killed him. It was murder! In that awful dance, a murder was committed. What have we done? How could we have killed Simon. It's horrible that we have lost our minds. I want to be purged of the fact that I took part in killing him. We are all going barmy here. When Simon came out of the forest, he kept saying something about a dead man and a parachute. Had he been telling us what the beast was? and then there was that thing that flew over us, a parachutist. My illumination that that was the beast might be right. But how could I know for sure? The beast had moved on he mountain, it was alive. Maybe Jack and his tribe would hunt it down and kill it. They would have the tools for starting a fire to burn it anyways. They came to our camp tonight. They stole Piggy's glasses! I have no idea how we're going to start the fire anymore. They beat us all up. It was dark, I might have been hitting my own teammates. I think I was. Piggy wasn't even fighting. He was so scared that he got his asthma. I'm not angry at him, not irritated, just exasperated. My spirit is broken, a theological punishment for killing Simon. I don't know what to do. I don't feel like a good chief to Samneric or Piggy. Or to the little ones. I don't even know why they're still here with me. I'm happy but I'm surprised. I want to go home so bad. It's gnawing away at my mind. I have to get home. I have to. I will do anything no matter what it takes.